Jan 20 2010

Rosalina and the Dead Bagels

I woke up kinda late today, a bit meh from the gray skies and rain. When I finally got up, I put a bagel in the toaster and put it on 2 minutes. I walked away to check on a few things, and came back to a burnt bagel. Boo! So, I decided to put another bagel into the toaster. I also opened some Dunkin Donuts cream cheese and set it by the toaster. I then walked to the dining room table to look through some of yesterday’s mail. I walked back into the kitchen a minute later, and saw my bagel in charcoal form… Boo! I opened the toaster oven and the door hit my cream cheese container, which then flipped onto the floor. This made me so angry and sad, that I almost went back to bed. Instead, I made a bowl of cereal and put on the news… rain rain rain.

I worked for a few hours today, and the rain was soooo loud and wearing on my nerves. I had the lights on, and it was still dark in here. Finally gave up and turned some lights off… it was like we never had day time. 🙁

After work, I decided to work on unlocking Rosalina for Mario Kart. First, I had to play through a save-game on Super Mario Galaxy. Holy hell! What crack-head created this game? I was getting so dizzy chasing rabbits and freeing stars! It was super fun, but I don’t think I could spend more than 20 min at a time on this one!

I then played through all 50cc games on Kart and unlocked Rosalina and a few other things. I didn’t come in 1st on all games, so I know I have to play through again. I am happy to have Rosalina now, but the truth is, I am pretty used to Toad on the Standard Kart now. Hmmm.

After Kart, I watched “Life Unexpected” on the CW. It was very CW, but I liked it. I then played more Kart, then watched “Worst Cooks in America” on the Food Network. I like this show, and have seen all the eps so far.

Now, Sandy & I are watching a car chase and the rain (weather) report on Fox – both at the same time. I wish I were a house cat… Dagan looks so peaceful right now sleeping on a couch pillow! Here I am thinking about mudslides, earthquakes, and traffic!

Jan 17 2010

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn

I am pretty damn tired right now… heading to bed in a few minutes.

This week was crazy.. very sad and very happy all at once. Haiti’s 7.0 earthquake was truly devastating. I remember getting the cellphone notification when that earthquake hit. I looked at my phone and said, “7.0.. uh oh!” and went online immediately to check out the news. Nothing! It took about 5 minutes before the stations were covering it. Truly a tragic event… I have no idea how they will recover. 🙁

Monday, I did go bowling this week after getting back from Phoenix, AZ for the Lola Felli bridal show. It was a fun night! Kyle was able to bowl a game after his shift, which hasn’t happened for a while. Kyle came back to my place after the game, and I took him home on the way to work the next day.

Tuesday started a very busy week in the office… we got a few orders and had to start planning order fulfillment. I think it’s going very well! A night, I went to Trivia. My team came in 2nd. I was proud of my 25pt final question: Who voiced Stimpy? It was an easy answer, yes… Billy West. Still, I was happy to have known an answer!

On Wednesday, I ran a few errands, then picked Kyle, Heath and Chris up to go hiking at Point Vicente. We played with hermit crabs and pet star fish. Mike Scharff met up with us down there. After that, we went to Brennan’s Irish Pub with everyone, as well as Violet, Jason, and Mike Dorwart. Great food!!!

Thursday, Zander and I focused on photography and order placement. After work, I went to Target, then spent the night depressed and wrote in my blog. I also edited photos and pet cats all night!

Friday, I went to work, then picked up Ben & Sandy, then headed to my sister’s for a vision board meeting. We all created vision boards, and it was really fun!

Saturday, slept in, then went into Hollywood to hang out with Jason. We walked around Hollywood Blvd, then had dinner at Koji’s with Scharff, Dorwart, Adam, and Sarah. After dinner, Emmett, Adrienne, Heather, Ryan, Ginger, Ricki, Erik, Josef, Mick, and others showed up to hang out. We sang lots of songs at karaoke and had some great drinks.

After karaoke, Kyle & I went back to his place and talked for a few hours. It was a much needed talk. We are doing great, and are very very happy together!

Sunday, took Kyle to the train station, then headed home to nap. Charter Cable came to install the DVR (which saves us $10 a month for some reason), and then I spend the day lounging about the living room.. I edited some photos, talked to friends online, and watched Young Guns II and the Golden Globes (why did Drew Barrymore have a sea urchin on her shoulder and hips?). At night, John came over and he, John L, Sandy & I tried out my new Christmas present (Zephyr Ion). Then, John, John L & I played Mario Kart, followed by John & I playing a bunch of levels of the new Super Mario Bros! It was awesome, and I really want it!

Tomorrow, going to see dad, then working in the afternoon. Bowling at night.

In the near future, I’m looking forward to the Oscars (and seeing all the movies beforehand), going to Vegas with Lola Felli, broomball, Ryan / Josh / Jul / Michael’s birthday party, an engagement shoot, my first valentine’s day with Kyle, a weekend away with Kyle in mid-late February, and wedding season starting up again this Spring!

Jan 14 2010

Swimming Through Pudding

Walking through Target tonight, the world started to collapse around me. I saw things, useless things… in every direction. Some things were pretty, and I thought I wanted them; but, after about 2 seconds of thought, I realized that I do not want want to add things to my already cluttered life. I have no room for these things. When I realized this, I began to see everything around me as a very alien plastic object of no value. I saw people all around me, buying these objects. I felt entirely disconnected from these people, these things, and the energy surrounding me.

The more I zig-zagged down the aisles, the more dead inside I felt. I collected apples, environmental shower cleaner, and kitty litter – all the while wishing I were not part of this existence. I felt like I was drowning in quicksand, but without the will to try to escape from it. As I looked around, I did see beautiful things, happy valentine’s cards, smiling people, laughing children, pet food with happy pets on the front… it was all pudding: sweet, wonderful, and sticky – sucking you in and trying to keep you in place.

The last few aisles were the worst. I was looking at frozen boxed food… food for one. I bought a Mama Celeste pizza for one. I didn’t feel lonely buying it, but I felt mocked by packaging design firm. I started to lose my desire for food as I crept slowly through these aisles. I wanted nothing… just to be rid of the necessity to even eat at all. A slight wave of depression started to set in. It quickly spired into an all out wish for sudden death. I kept feeling myself start to hyperventilate a little… I started repeating quietly, “I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine” over and over again, as I walked by people with a very nice smile on my face.

I pictured myself driving home, getting in a fatal accident, and my spirit hovering above my body, pointing down at me; and, with a Nelson Muntz taunt, gave me a “haha” before drifting away. My dying body laying there saying, “Wait! I wished for this and didn’t even get to leave a suicide note… not fair!” At this point, my spirit did leave my body out of pure boredom for this monotonous store. I later found it in the car, listening to Alice in Chains’ Jar of Flies (Nutshell, to be exact). I joined it and put the song on repeat for my entire drive home (from Vineland and Victory).

On my drive home, all I could think about was how useless I am to this world – not to my friends or cats or co-workers, but to the Universe as a whole. I felt so small, so insignificant. I kept hearing my friends’ voices saying, “you matter to me, and that makes you special” and crap like that. I didn’t want to hear any of it. I wanted to disappear… not into death where I would have to review my life and frolic into the afterlife, but into true oblivion, where my spirit would be no more.

I noticed myself smiling at people in cars as I sat at red lights beside them. I realized that I was actually laughing at the idea of all of this, thinking to myself, “Am I insane?!” Telling myself, “No no… that’s what you want to believe; but, really… you are normal.” Boo! Who wants to be normal?! I want to sing and cry and dance and scream and jump off cliffs and run through fields and fly like birds and sleep like cats and fuck like rabbits and smell like roses and glow like lightning and feel like fire and taste like sweet-tarts and look like a hologram of rainbows with squirrels running around me in figure eights.

By that time I got home, I had watery eyes and a severe depression taking over me. I felt no obligation should keep me here, and that life isn’t giving me any reason to feel passionate about it. I can’t just take off and travel to Japan and New Guinea. I can’t just sit on a beach drinking fancy cocktails for a month or two. I can’t travel around the US visiting art centers and learning new techniques so I could play with clay and fire and silver all day. I can’t just sleep in and pet my cats for 4 hours a day. I can’t eat at fancy vegan and raw foods restaurants every night. I can’t rent a small prop plane and fly around the Grand Canyon every month. I can’t buy a jet ski and go out for an hour every day. I can’t do any of these things… I have to work. I have to take care of things. I have to pay bills. I have to hover around the dollar fairy and beg for more, just so I can keep a roof over my head and food in my cats mouths!

Fuck money. I wouldn’t need it if I were dead. Still, I am NOT a selfish person. It takes a very selfish person to take oneself out. Me, I couldn’t do it. Those who love me and need me have a deep hold on me. They make me feel like I would hurt them if I left them, and I don’t want to hurt anyone… ever! I just have to stick around this place and make the best of it. I must say, I am pretty happy overall. I have a passionate sex life with a great boyfriend, amazing cats, fantastic roommates, incredible friends, a job I really enjoy, a clean and safe apartment / neighborhood, a talented and loving sister, a wonderful family, and much more. It baffles me that I am so bored with my life. It feels so plain and repetitive. I am usually so thankful for all that I have. Why do I often fall into this hole where nothing is enough – where I want more! It often takes hearing my cats purr to bring me back down to the humility of true appreciation.

As I write this, I am not upset, nor crying, nor sad even. I am just kinda blah. I feel very little, and don’t have the desire to feel much more for a few hours. I thought about going to sleep early, but that will just make tomorrow come sooner. Tomorrow will be no more exciting than today… so what’s the point in rushing it?! If I stay awake, I guess I could do something productive or fun. I don’t really feel like it though. I would prefer to just press pause for a while and pick up when the earth’s terrain has changed dramatically… that could be exciting! Hmmm, or devastating.

I’ve had enough trauma and pain for one person in one short life… why do I seek more?! Why do I yearn for something to hurt just to “feel” again? I usually love the idea of stability, but I realized that I like stability with growth and gradual progress. Stability that is stagnant… ugh! I am the walking dead. Hear me roar (with the sound of a horn no stronger than my Prius)!

Blah blah blah…

Jan 10 2010

Since Returning to LA…

I have had way too much fun, but have not had enough quality time with my kitties, roommies, friends, or Kyle. Let’s see…

I got back on the 30th, and Kyle picked me up from the Fly Away. Sadly, with my late flight, we didn’t get to hang out til much later as he had band practice.

31st – Partied at Koji’s with great people! Had lots of drinks, shots, and laughs! I took tons of photos, which I will post very soon… After Koji’s closed, I went with Josef, Karla & Irene to Mel’s for grub. Still drunk, I wandered back to Koji’s to deliver bagels to drunk friends, then Kyle & I took the Red Line back to the valley and went to his house. We were both trashed, but still had an awesome night!

1st – Slept in, went to see Avatar 3D, then had dinner with Bobby and friends for Bobby’s birthday!

2nd – Slept in, played around online, went out to dinner with Corey, Sara & Sara’s sister (Gianna) at Porto’s, went to Koji’s for karaoke, and hung out with Kyle after.

3rd – Napped, edited photos, napped some more, posted photos, and chilled at home.

4th – Worked (prepped for tradeshow), chilled at home, went to my sister’s improv show with my friend Ben (who tried his first Pinkberry), then hung out with Kyle for a bit.

5th – Worked, then went to Bar Trivia (which was super fun).

6th – Worked, did laundry, played on FB, saw a raccoon outside my apartment, and worked some more (til 3am)

7th – Finished packing, then got breakfast and headed to Phoenix with Laurel & Meghan. We stopped in Cabazon and some silly little coffee rest stop in Chiriaco Summit on the way. We settled into the awesome Scottsdale Cottonwood Resort for the night.

8th – Set up the booth at the PHX Conv Ctr for the Bridal Fashion Debut. I ran around picking up tables, getting copies made, and getting us food. It was a tiring, but good day! Picked Zander up at the Mesa airport at midnight, and passed out instantly when I got back to the Hampton Inn in Phx.

9th – Dropped Zander, Meghan, and Laurel off at the Convention, and went back to the hotel to wait for a package of color swatches to arrive. I eventually gave up when Zander called to tell me it was seriously crowded and needed my help. We made two sales and got lots of inquiries. Overall it was a great day!

At night, went to the Nordstrom Rack’s Last Chance, then got some Thai food (yum)

10th – Had another great day at the Convention – lots of inquiries and great compliments (on our products AND my personality)! Haha! After the show, we loaded the car, and rested up in the room. We watched “He’s Just Not That Into You,” which was total crap and unrealistic! Then, we got some pizza. Now, watching some crap on VH1, but it’s entertaining in a deer-in-the-headlights sort of way.

Tomorrow, heading home!!!! I can’t wait to see my kitties! I probably won’t get to see Kyle til Tuesday though. Boo! Anyhow, happy to be heading home soon!

Jan 09 2010

A Week in Florida – Recap

Violet & I had an amazing time in FL! Here’s SOME of what we did / saw:

12/23 – Lester’s Diner with Emily, nap, lunch with Leilani at Romeu’s, hang out at Town Hall with Em, nap, dinner with family, dessert and drinks with Em & James

12/24 – Hollywood Beach with Leilani, Christmas party with the Duarte’s / DeRosa’s, Riverfront & Fat Cats with Joe and James

12/25 – Slept in, Christmas dinner with True / Potens families, karaoke with DeRosa’s, hung out with Keith & Joe after

12/26 – Slept a bit, headed down to South Beach for the afternoon, had dinner with Jen, Courtney & Jay, saw Paul, met up with Leilani, James, Ryan M, Ryan S (and friends), Jimmy, Froggie, Diane, Azi, Dan, Meredith, Jen, Lizzy, & others at Fat Cats. After, headed to Ryan & Lizzy’s for a bit.

12/27 – Slept a little, met Grandma at Lester’s for lunchfast, met up with Joe at Everglades Holiday Park for an airboat ride, picked up Leilani & Ben, drove to Melbourne, FL, hung out with Nikki, Jason & the kids

12/28 – Islands of Adventure with Leilani, Ben, & Grace. Sooooooo much fun! We drove home afterward.

12/29 – Slept in, returned the rental car, had dinner at the Beverly Hills Cafe with Ryan S, Bach family, Liz & the girls, and Jen & Courtney; went to Stage 84 to see Leilani’s dad (Robert) perform, then hung out at the billiard hall nearby with Lei, Jen, Liz, Ryan S, & Ryan M. It was very sad to say good-bye, but we couldn’t stay out all night. Well, I could…. haha! After leaving, Ryan took us to Dunkin Donuts to pick up breakfast for the morning

12/30 – Ryan dropped us off at FLL (airport) super early. Violet made her flight, but I missed mine. Delta got me on a 10:10am flight though, which wasn’t too bad. Sadly, it cut into my evening with Kyle though 🙁

Happy to be home with the kitties and my sexy man! I did have a great time!

Jan 02 2010

Hopes for 2010

At the end of every year, many people talk about how we hope the next year will be better than the last one. Well, this year, more people than ever are singing that same song. I’ve never seen so many people united in hopes for a better year ahead.

Here are some of my general hopes and commitments for 2010:

1. Eat less dairy & junk food
2. Walk and hike more
3. Go on a photo hike / outing once a month
4. Get better at marketing my photography business and doing follow-ups
5. Learn the ins and outs of Lightroom
6. I hope to go full-time at Lola Felli and see that company grow and succeed
7. Pay off some / most of my debt
8. Hopefully do a bridal show for Arielle Haze Photography
9. A healthy and happy year for my kitties
10. Go to Disneyland more (with my annual pass)
11. Spending more quality time with Kyle
12. Driving down the PCH again sometime in the Spring
13. Going camping with friends around the state
14. I want to try more vegan and vegetarian restaurants in LA
15. Learning more songs for karaoke outings

Here are some specific things I am looking forward to (in no particular order):

* Bridal shows with Lola Felli
* Going to S.FL for Katrina’s wedding in June
* WPPI in Vegas (if I can afford it)
* Broomball in February
* New Orleans trip in December
* 6th Annual Cracker / Camper Camp-Out in September
* Driving down the PCH again
* Meeting the new additions to my friends’ families (lots of babies due this year) – mostly in the Spring
* Seeing the next Harry Potter movie in November
* Seeing Alice in Wonderland in March
* Bats Day in mid-Spring

Jan 02 2010

2009 – In Review

January – Unemployed, sleepless nights, money stress, interviews, hopeful for a good year ahead

February – Unemployed, lots of interviews, photo outings, prep apt for new roommate, begin massive study in marketing my own business

March – Working temp, cat health issues (Aurora), no roommate yet, marketing meetings, outings for fun (to keep me sane), not enough sleep, RIP Penny

April – Photography business marketing, social networking for Arielle Haze Photography, not hired at NBC, got a perm Exec Assist position at Cast & Crew, caught up on sleep, photo outings, Gigi moved in

May – John left me, I got fired due to depression, learned a bit about my processing disorder, CA upheld Prop 8 (what crap!), lost tons of weight

June – Went out a lot, met Violet, wrote a lot, late nights thinking, karaoke, started watching Psych, didn’t sleep much (nightmares)

July – Severe mental breakdown, started depression meds, traveled to Maryland (Nicole/Josh’s wedding), NJ (to relax and recoop with Viv), and Pennsylvania (Mike/Brooke’s wedding), birthday dinner at Koji’s, Bar Trivia fun with friends, karaoke, Spamalot with Ryan, Six Flags with friends, weddings, photography outings

August – Hung out at the Palace a lot, karaoke nights at Koji’s, Elysia’s birthday fun, saw Project Pitchfork (a rare treat), background work in a Just Nikki episode, played a hooker in a Back on Topps episode, shot a gun at a gun range (did really good), lots of bowling, LA was on fire, saw The ROOM with friends and spoons, performed and photographed weddings

Sept – Cracker / Camper Camp-Out, started dating Kyle (9/15), saw Apoptygma Berzerk, bowling with Koji’s peeps, started working part-time with Lola Felli, hung out with Gigi a lot, hung out at the Palace, Patrick Swayze died, karaoke

Oct – First vacation alone (to Sedona), Kyle & Aaron came to Sedona for a few days (amazing time), saw a meteorite, karaoke, trivia, bowling, started hanging out with John a little more (esp to coordinate kitty care), Disneyland, Kyle & I made our relationship official (10/25), photo outings, dad lost his case and went away, had some depression attacks, started gaining weight back, Halloween at Lyse’s!

Nov – Lola Felli launch, camping in Anza Borrego with Violet, Jason, Kyle, Marcos and friends, Greg & John’s birthday bar crawl & karaoke, Vivienne & Gabe got married over Thanksgiving (Lyse & I flew to NJ for the wedding)

Dec – Started the month sick with the flu, Dagan got his first lion’s cut, worked hard on Lola Felli’s next bridal show, went to FL with Violet, had an awesome new year’s eve with friends at Koji’s!

Dec 21 2009

Two More Days…

In two days, I hop on a flight to FL with Violet. We will arrive on Wednesday morning, and Emily is picking us up (yay)! I am really excited to be visiting… it’s been a long time!

My schedule so far is:
Wed – Dinner at Disalvo’s with family and key lime pie at Le Tub with Emily
Thurs – Miami and DeRosa party
Friday – Stop at a few places to celebrate Christmas
Saturday – Sleep in, go to the beach, dinner with Paul, go out with friends in Ft. Laud
Sunday – Butterfly World maybe? Also, hang out with friends, maybe drive North with Leilani and Violet
Monday – Islands of Adventure
Tuesday – Return to S.FL and hang out
Wednesday – Fly back to LA

Man, that was a fast trip and I haven’t even left yet!

This past week was pretty great, other than some severe allergy trouble. Let’s see… over the past 9 days, I hung out with some friends, did karaoke, had an amazing time with Kyle (he made dinner for me and we hung out a bunch this week), co-hosted a fun holiday party, and worked a lot on Lola Felli. I also edited tons of photos, placed some orders, and visited some clients.

Oh, I also performed a wedding, went to trivia, grocery shopped, went to Disneyland, played in the snow at Big Bear, decorated the apartment, got a Wii and played Mario Kart, went to the bowling alley, had dinner with Elysia at a vegan restaurant, and did laundry.

No wonder I’m tired!!!

Dec 12 2009

There Can Be Only One…

Abstract or Structured….

Not sure why, but in my life, I do not have the ability to be abstract or think in abstract ways. I do not interpret. I do not assume. I do not notice. I do not read between lines. I do not read facial expressions, actions or notice gestures.

I am forgetful. I am sometimes inconsiderate. I am not always a good listener, esp. if I cannot follow the story. I am often confused. I do not often “get” jokes. I am misunderstood and misunderstand others.

I have a processing disorder. I cannot process anything abstract, implied, suggested, or inferred. I can only see things in black and white, even though I know greys exist. I can only understand what is spelled out for me, verbally and clearly. I can only comprehend what is explained to me, usually multiple times.

I 100% rely on calendars for ANYTHING to get done or be remembered. I am verbal. I am structured. I am logical. I am always honest. I am caring. I am kind. I am loving. I am appreciative. I am humble.

I am confident in who I am and love who I am. I am confident in all of my abilities other than my memory and interpreting others.

I am great at algebra. I am awful at reading comprehension. This is not an academic issue. It is an issue with the way I process information. That in which there are formulas I can build upon, I can learn. That which requires interpretation, experience, memory, and inference, I will not be able to learn. Yes, that is a bold statement, but it is 100% the case… confirmed by multiple therapists and online groups of people with similar conditions.

I am human. I will hurt many people unintentionally due to my lack of memory, inability to comprehend, and occasional screw-ups with inputting info into my calendar.

For this, my friends… I am sorry. Please forgive me!

Dec 04 2009

The Cute Helps the Cold

Dagan’s new lion’s cut is adorable! I just love it! He looks and is acting so happy! I remember Casey used to be so energetic when I’d bring him home after a lion’s cut! He loved it too!

Cats really do help make you feel better when it’s cold outside and you have a cold. They purr and want to love up on you! It’s so great! I am so thankful to have 4 wonderful kitties in my life and my home!

So, it’s Thursday night and I’m pretty damn sick. I had a severe headache all day, and my cramps started today. I worked for a few hours at the office in Tarzana, but got worse and worse as the day went on. Each cough hurts my head even more!

When I got home, I made dinner, then my roommate, John, used this electronic neck massager on my head and neck. It was awesome! This thing is powerful! It totally lowered my pain from 100% to 10% in 5 minutes! I then made some green tea with honey (which I spilled on myself) and some celery with tofutti and olives. Midol and Biaxin were also thrown into the mix.

I feel much better now, and I’m resting on the couch with kitties. Sandy’s on my lap, Dagan’s behind my head, and Aurora’s asleep on her side by my leg. No clue where Gracie is… hopefully not getting into too much trouble!

The Crow is on. I love this movie – story, characters, soundtrack, mood, symbolism, everything! Everyone MUST see this movie if you have any depth at all to you! It’s really beautiful and dark!

So, today was day 3/21 of ovo-veg. I had whole grain cereal with berries and soy milk, granola, fruit/nut bar, celery with tofuitti / olives, black beans / rice, vegan enchilada, apples, strawberries, green tea w/honey, vitamin water, and I may have a few more berries before bed. I’m doing pretty good, eh?! 🙂

My cell phone battery just died a bit ago. I think I need to charge that and try to sleep soon. I’m enjoying the Crow though… wish I could add a few more hours into the day!

Oh, I put up LA Wedding Women on Facebook (the fan page). Become a fan!

That’s it for now, have a great night!

Dec 01 2009

Down with the Sickness

Seems everybody is sick right now, myself included. I have better nights, but I wake up feeling all dehydrated, stuffed up, sore throat, muscle aches, and a headache. Even my ears hurt deep inside. I hope to get over this very soon, as I have way too much to do these days!

So, I can’t possibly recap the past two weeks as I hardly remember them, but here’s what I do remember…

* Greg & John had a birthday outing bar hop, and I had to leave early, but had fun while I was there.

* I co-ran the Lola Felli bridal show in Pasadena. We had a great response to our booth and products, but no sales. We need more trendy colors, and we’re working on that!

* I went camping with Kyle, Violet, Jason, Marcos, Zillah, and a bunch of new friends. It was such a great weekend. I could see every star in the sky! We camped in Anza Borrego far out into the middle of nowhere. We had over 25 people camping in total in our group!

* Went to karaoke for John & Greg’s birthday (part 2) and had a great time hanging out with friends and singing.

* Thanksgiving was spent in New Jersey with my god-mother, her fiance, and her god-mother. I got sick as soon as I arrived in Philly, and spent the next few days having trouble sleeping and functioning properly. I was so exhausted and worn out. Thanksgiving food was great though!

* My god-mother’s wedding was on Saturday after Thanksg. Viv & Gabe are married now, and they are soooo happy! It was a very busy weekend, but great to be a part of it!

11/29 – Flew home, which took forever. My second (longest) flight gave me a middle seat and tons of babies crying all around me. John picked me up from the airport and we went to eat. I was soooo tired, but I still wanted to go see Kyle, so I went over to his new place after settling in and playing with the kitties for a bit.

11/30 – Woke up soooo sore and with a pretty bad sinus condition. I couldn’t breathe very well at all. I decided to work from home and rest. At night, I felt sooooo much better. I went and got a massage at Massage Envy in Glendale (Zoya is the best)! Then, I went to Koji’s for dinner with Laury & Marlee. Jay joined us, and then Violet and Jason joined us.

After, I went down to the bowling alley and bowled one game. I got only a 67. Boo! 🙁 When Kyle got off work, we went to the NoHo Diner for him to get some grub, then I went home to rest.

12/01 – Woke up severely ill. I have a sore throat, headache, body aches, severe congestion, and dehydration. I really hope my humidifier gets here soon! I think it will help a lot. It’s been so dry here!

I decided to stay home tonight and not go to trivia. I want to go, but I need rest. I worked for a few hours on strategy and planning for Lola Felli. I also watched CNN all day, which has been solely focused on the Afgan war. I don’t really have much of an opinion anymore. I’m more interested in universal healthcare and jobs for all people!

Tomorrow, I am going to move from one storage unit to a larger one, as well as working a bit. Mostly, I need to rest. Kyle and John Leonetti are going to help with the move, thankfully!

Nov 16 2009

You Know Life Can Be Long, And You’ve Got to Be So Strong

And the world, she is tough….

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So, this week was a good and busy one. I have had a lot of trials lately, and I think I’ve succeeded pretty well.

Monday, Nov 9th – Worked on the Lola Felli launch, and I can’t remember what I did that night.

Tuesday, Nov 10th – Worked, went to John’s to clip Penemue’s claws and hung out with Jenni & Stuart til John got home. Around 8:45pm, headed to Springbok for Bar Trivia. My team consisted of Sandy, John, Emmett, Greg, Evaun & Matt. We had an up and down game, sticking around the middle ground for most of it. In the end, we were probably in 4th or 5th place, then we bet 25pts and got the final question right thanks to Sandy! We won 1st place!!! $80 bar tab!

After trivia, I headed down to Hollywood & Highland to hang out with Kyle.

Wednesday, Nov 11th – Went to Amoeba to drop off two boxes of DVDs from my car. Then, I headed into the office to work on the Lola Felli launch. It was a really busy and good day! After work, I think I came home and relaxed, but I can’t remember.

Thursday, Nov 12th – Worked a long day at Lola Felli, getting closer to launch, then I probably watched TV or something. Again, I can’t remember.

Friday, Nov 13th – Worked a very very long day, prepping for launch. Ran around to 4 different Michael’s and to Target to get supplies. After that, Kyle met me here and we went to the Towers for a Red Green party. We ended up watching one episode, then playing Trivial Pursuit on the Playstation. Somehow, the night flew by.

Saturday, Nov 14th – Slept in a bit, then walked to Billy’s Deli with Kyle for a bagel. At 3pm, I had a wedding to perform, then I took a nap. At night, I went over to NoHo for Greg & John’s Bar Crawl. I picked up Violet at Paquito Mas and then we drove to the Snug. Violet, Greg, Ricki & I had a buttery nipple shot and V & I split a Madres. Emmett & I ate some Nerds candy, and we all chatted about random things.

At 11pm, the group moved on to NoBar, and I headed home to get some sleep. Only thing is, I couldn’t fall asleep… I was so wired about the bridal show coming up!

Sunday, Nov 15th – Woke up super early and Billy’s Deli for a bagel & coffee, then drove to Pasadena to meet Meghan to set up the Lola Felli booth at the Bridal Showplace tradeshow.

It was a really great tradeshow. Our booth was very popular, and our display looked so beautiful! I got home just after 5pm, and got ready to go to dinner with John & Sandy. We stopped at Best Buy first, as I needed to buy the Canon S90. 😉

We got to Koji’s around 7:45pm and had Shabu Shabu. Yum!!! After, we hung out at the bar for a while. Kyle was bar-tending. He made Sandy & I some super yummy drinks!

John, Sandy & I headed home around 10:30pm, and Kyle came over at 11:30pm. We watched some of the Muppet Movie, then went to bed.

Monday, Nov 16th – Got up pretty damn early and performed a wedding at Fremont Park, got bagels & coffee at Billy’s, then headed into work after going in the opposite direction to the sign place first. Work was good… strategized about where to take the company, and how to implement positive changes.

This should be a great week!

Nov 13 2009

Special Occasions

Why do we save things for special occasions? Food, china, words?

Tonight, I opened my cabinet to see what I wanted to snack on. I saw graham crackers and got super excited. Then, a voice inside my head said, “those are for when you make s’mores, which is on camping trips.”

I got sad, as if I were not “allowed” to open the package… the package filled with the food I wanted to snack on. Then, I thought, “why do I have to wait til I go camping to open these? I want them now. I’m an adult. I bought them. I want to eat them, and I want to eat them now!”

So, I took the package down from the shelf. I broke into the wrapping and pulled out a cracker. So happy, I took a bite. Then, it all sunk in… stale! I waited waaaaay too long to break into these. I let them go bad by waiting.

I finished off that one cracker and tossed the rest in the trash. How awful. What a waste! I could have enjoyed them months ago, but no… I was waiting for that “special occasion” to eat them.

I say “boo” on this! From now on, I’m not waiting for special occasions. I’m eating and doing and saying what I want, when I want!

Nov 09 2009

12 More Days…

til I have a day off! I’ll be working a lot this week to get Lola Felli ready for launch on Sunday. On Saturday, I have a wedding (maybe 2). The next time I will be sleeping in and spending the day in leisure is Nov 20th, at a campsite in Anza Borrego with some friends!

So, this past week was insane! I spent most of it packing my entire apartment into boxes. Gigi moved out on Monday, and I was very sad to see her go. 🙁

Tuesday was a busy day. John & Sandy Leonetti moved in. I moved into Gigi’s room and they took my old room. I continued packing everything into boxes, while still trying to relocate my life to a space 7 feet away. In the evening, I made cupcakes for Violet’s birthday with the help of Sandy & Kyle. We then went to Trivia. Our team sucked ass, but it was still a fun night!

Slept in on Wednesday and then made waffles for Kyle & I for breakfast. Cleaned some more and packed some more. I can’t even remember what I did that night!

On Thursday, I frantically packed the rest of the apartment into boxes til way late into the night. I didn’t leave the house all day!

Friday was “new carpet” installation day! All furniture and boxes were moved out and new golden honey colored carpet was put into every room! It’s beautiful and soft!

After, John, Sandy & I started to put our rooms back together. This was a huge task, and it is not nearly done! In the evening, Josef came by and the 4 of us went to El Morfi for dinner. Yum!!!!

Later that night, after a long trip to Target to get household supplies, Kyle came over and we watched Me, Myself & Irene while chowing on kettle corn and drinking hot chocolate and apple cider. 🙂

Slept in on Saturday, then Kyle took me to breakfast at Billy’s Deli around 1pm. I spent the rest of the day running errands and unpacking. At 10pm, I headed to Koji’s to meet Adrienne for some karaoke. We had most of the mic to ourselves, and I sang tons of songs. A new karaoke song for me too… Peaches by PoUSA! Kyle said my best song of the night was “Here is Gone” by the Goo Goo Dolls. I love that song!

Unfortunately, my plan to leave Koji’s at 12:15am was a total failure. Adrienne & I were stupid drunk and couldn’t drive. We walked with Kyle back to his place and he made us both grilled cheese sandwiches. Yum!!! Drank lots of water, played one game of bag-o, talked, then Adrienne left when she felt ready to drive. Kyle & I stayed up for another few hours, against my better judgment… as Sunday was “moving day!” Eeeek!

Woke up at 7:30am and booked it home to Glendale. Got a shower and headed to U-Haul with John to pick up the 14 footer. The line was looooong!

We got to Corona by noon and met up with Elysia, Jay, and KC who were packing up the house. Grandma Rose was packing herself to go to a retirement home (somewhat against her will). It was a stressful and long afternoon. We didn’t leave there til after sunset, and Lyse & I checked Rose into a home in Woodland Hills (70 miles drive from Corona). The guys unloaded boxes and furniture into my apt, public storage, and Elysia’s apartment. John & I finally got back home around 1:30am after a quick dinner stop at Del Taco.

It’s 2:45am now and I’m freakin’ exhausted having slept only 2.5 hours. Coffee was a bit of a help, but what I need right now is true, deep sleep! Better find some sheets for my new bed. Hmmmm…

Nov 02 2009

Another Week I Can Hardly Remember…

That’s because I do waaaaaay too many things in just 7 days!

Mon, Oct 26th – Besides work, I went bowling. I cannot remember what I did between work and bowling. I know Kyle & I were the first at the bowling alley. Paul was there this week!

Tues, Oct 27th – Worked, then went to Paul’s show at Koji’s. He and KC both played alternately for a few hours. It was freakin’ fantastic! I did get depressed about stuff going on with my family and had to leave early, but it was a great night overall!

Wed, Oct 28th – Worked, hung out with Gigi, worked on my costume with Kyle’s help. 🙂

Thurs, Oct 29th – After work, went to dinner with Lyse and Paul… surprised them both with Anne Tofte, who flew in for Lyse’s show. Kyle hung out with us during dinner, then he went to Slipknot with the guys and I went to Elysia’s show at IO West. It was great!

Later in the night, I worked on my costume some more with John’s help. He bathed Dagan and I helped him with his costume too.

Fri, Oct 30th – Worked, then went grocery shopping for the Autumn Halloween Party. Gigi & I got ready (got into our costumes), which took forever… but it was well worth it! We got to the party around 8pm, and had a freakin’ fabulous time! Great costumes, lots of amazing people, so much fun! Hung out with Kyle afterward. 🙂

Sat, Oct 31st – Kyle made us breakfast as I got ready to go out for Halloween fun part 2! Breakfast was waffles with strawberries, bananas, syrup and cinnamon! Sooooooooo yummy! I picked Josef up around 3pm, and we drove into WeHo. Parked on Sunday and San Vicente, then walked down to Santa Monica Blvd. We met up with Violet and Jason at Fiesta Cantina, where he and I were already working on a massive margarita!

The WeHo Costume Carnivale was so awesome! Gigi and her friend met up with us for a few hours too. We all drank many margaritas and wandered about photographing costumes and crazy people! It was so much fun. I think this was the best Halloween ever! Later on, we met up with Lyse, Paul and Jay for a bit too.

Ending the night, Josef & I went to the NoHo diner for grub, then I watched Donnie Darko with John while we absorbed the extra hour of Halloween petting cats.

Sun, Nov 1st – Went to Corona to help get stuff ready at my dad’s house. It was a very very frustrating day. In the evening, I picked up Sunshine (my bird) and took her to her new home in La Crescenta with my new friend Steve and his family. I think she will be happy there!

After that, I went to the Springbok for Violet’s karaoke birthday party! It was a great party! I had a ton of fun, and was so happy my night turned out so great. Violet seemed to have a blast, and I was so happy seeing her celebrate with all her friends! It was awesome!

I sang Pink Floyd’s Comfortably Numb (w/Ryan Trask), Toad the Wet Sprocket’s I Will Not Take These Things for Granted (myself), PoUSA’s Kitty (w/Ryan Trask), Snow Patrol’s Set the Fire to the 3rd Bar (w/John), and took tons of photos!

What a great week / weekend! Hope you all had an amazing Halloween too!

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