Abstract or Structured….
Not sure why, but in my life, I do not have the ability to be abstract or think in abstract ways. I do not interpret. I do not assume. I do not notice. I do not read between lines. I do not read facial expressions, actions or notice gestures.
I am forgetful. I am sometimes inconsiderate. I am not always a good listener, esp. if I cannot follow the story. I am often confused. I do not often “get” jokes. I am misunderstood and misunderstand others.
I have a processing disorder. I cannot process anything abstract, implied, suggested, or inferred. I can only see things in black and white, even though I know greys exist. I can only understand what is spelled out for me, verbally and clearly. I can only comprehend what is explained to me, usually multiple times.
I 100% rely on calendars for ANYTHING to get done or be remembered. I am verbal. I am structured. I am logical. I am always honest. I am caring. I am kind. I am loving. I am appreciative. I am humble.
I am confident in who I am and love who I am. I am confident in all of my abilities other than my memory and interpreting others.
I am great at algebra. I am awful at reading comprehension. This is not an academic issue. It is an issue with the way I process information. That in which there are formulas I can build upon, I can learn. That which requires interpretation, experience, memory, and inference, I will not be able to learn. Yes, that is a bold statement, but it is 100% the case… confirmed by multiple therapists and online groups of people with similar conditions.
I am human. I will hurt many people unintentionally due to my lack of memory, inability to comprehend, and occasional screw-ups with inputting info into my calendar.
For this, my friends… I am sorry. Please forgive me!