It is fascinating that for the past two weeks I’ve been waking up with very intense songs in my head. I usually don’t hear music until I get in the car. I guess, when I am sad or emotional, music comes to me instead to pull it all out of me – for better or …
Category Archive: Blogging
May 20 2009
Time to Shine
Pink Floyd – Shine On You Crazy Diamond Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun. Shine on you crazy diamond. Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky. Shine on you crazy diamond. You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom, blown on the steel …
May 19 2009
Why I Blog…
Without ever being diagnosed, I grew up with a reading / learning disability. I finally found out about it this December, upon talking to a friend who diagnosis kids for a living. She unofficially diagnosed me, and told me if I were tested now, I’d surely be diagnosed. Basically, I cannot understand / comprehend what …
May 17 2009
Sleepy Time
It’s 12:43am now, and I had a good weekend. I am very thankful for my wonderful friends who have kept me company on the phone, via text, on IM and in person. Today, I had a house cleaner come over to help get this place looking good and in order. It feels really good to …
May 17 2009
Learning to Fly
Pink Floyd – Learning to Fly Into the distance, a ribbon of black Stretched to the point of no turning back A flight of fancy on a windswept field Standing alone my senses reeled A fatal attraction holding me fast, how Can I escape this irresistible grasp? Can’t keep my mind from the circling skies …
May 16 2009
Music Invasion
I love music. It infects me very deeply, too deeply at times. I’m watching VH1’s top 100 of the 90s, and Iris just came on. This song makes me cry even when I’m in a good mood. Man, what emotion music can pull out of people! Green Day is on now. Wow, I have to …
May 16 2009
What Did I Expect?
Today was my 1st therapy session since John left me. It was a rocky start with her office being closed and me having to come back later on since she wasn’t legally allowed to talk to me until I did paperwork. It’s very hard to type right now. Sandy is cuddling me like mad. She’s …
May 15 2009
Mood Swings
So, be it my hormones or depression, my moods are swinging so wildly. I break down so easily, and I do stupid things… very stupid. Today, when I had a breakdown, I reached out to the one person who knows me best and who I trust to understand me – John. I shouldn’t have. He …
May 15 2009
A Week & A Half
It’s now been a week and a half since John left me. He & I have had very important and good talks since then, but it doesn’t make it any easier. The truth is, I am not yet at the point of acceptance. I am still longing and missing him so much. I really wish …
May 14 2009
Closure, Not Comfort
Depeche Mode – Precious Precious and fragile things Need special handling My God what have we done to You? We always try to share The tenderest of care Now look what we have put You through… Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we’d manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There …
May 13 2009
Working on Things
So, after a very long, tearful discussion with John last night, I realized I really needed to work on things in my own life. I feel I’m realizing a lot of my issues, now that we talked; but, I don’t want to ever be that person again – so weak and so unaware. I want …
May 09 2009
For well you know that its a fool who plays it cool…
“Hey Jude” by The Beatles D/L: The Beatles – Hey Jude.mp3 Hey jude, dont make it bad. Take a sad song and make it better. Remember to let her into your heart, Then you can start to make it better. Hey jude, dont be afraid. You were made to go out and get her. The …
May 08 2009
Please Just Save Me from this Darkness.
“Make This Go On Forever” by Snow Patrol D/L: Snow Patrol – Make This Go On Forever.mp3 Please don’t let this turn into something it’s not I can only give you everything I’ve got I can’t be as sorry as you think I should But I still love you more than anyone else could All …
Apr 11 2009
I Was Born Under a Full Moon
http://www.paulsadowski.org/BirthData.asp 30 July 1977 Your date of conception was on or about 6 November 1976 which was a Saturday. You were born on a Saturday under the astrological sign Leo. Your Life path number is 7. Your fortune cookie reads: Anger begins with folly, and ends with regret. Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible …
Mar 29 2009
Rest in Peace, Dear Penny
I will miss you! I hope you find happiness on the other side. I know my mom will guide you through heaven and show you around. I am sorry your life was so rough. I wish you had made it through to tell your story of success; but, I guess not everyone makes it… I …