I’m back in LA now, and I’m feeling a bit off. I am so happy to be home with my kitties and my things, but I feel very lost right now. I’m not depressed, thankfully; but, I am experiencing a deep longing for the freedom I felt last week. I had no responsibilities other than to eat, sleep, and breathe. I wandered the streets of NJ, PA, and NY with almost no obligation. I took pictures, hung out with friends, ate great food, took long walks, and slept very well.
I got home last night and Josef picked me up at BUR airport. We went straight to trivia. It was fun, and my team came in 2nd. Still, I didn’t feel quite right. Once I got home, I was thrilled to see and pet the kitties. Going to sleep was another story. I was dead tired and though I was happy to be in my own bed, I couldn’t sleep well. After a week of sleeping great, I thought sleep would be even easier being home… wrong! I woke up about 4 times last night about 2 hours apart each. I tossed and turned all night. I just wasn’t comfortable.
When I woke up, all I wanted was to return to vacation… return to freedom. It hovered over me so much that I spent the day in a very odd zoned-out head-space. I didn’t shower or change clothes. I just returned emails, started editing wedding photos, put up some pix from my trip, played on FB, watched CNN, and zoned out for a while with the cats.
I couldn’t bring myself to job hunt today, but tomorrow I really need to get on it. Real life is happening even if I would like to put things on hold for a few more weeks. Bills are still coming…
I think I’m also bothered that I’m not going to Comic-Con. Many of my friends are going, and I had such a wonderful time the past two years that I went. I would love to be there! Some of my friends are already there! I’m beyond envious. I have a wedding this Saturday, and income is vital at this point; so, it was worth skipping the Con this year. Still, I am sad I can’t be there. I hope everyone has a wonderful time, and I hope some of them think of me while they are there! 🙂
So, my pix are updated at: www.mirdonamy.com/photos, but here are a few from the past few days:
July 19: Went to Pittsburgh after Mike & Brooke’s wedding and roamed the city. Met up for lunch with Lyse, KC, Angela, Mark, Mike, Justin, John, & Dave at Primanti Bros. Lyse drove KC & I back to Cherry Hill on the Turnpike, and we had dinner at Ponzio’s before heading back to the house.
July 20: Went to the Mutter Museum in Philly with Lyse & KC. Lois picked us up from the Speedline and took me to get a Panzarotti. Then, we met up for dinner with with Viv & Faye at Ponzio’s. After, we went to Cherry’s for water ice. Once back at the house, I packed to head home.
July 21: Woke up with my bedding everywhere, yet I still slept well. Went to breakfast at Dunkin’ Donuts, then to TLC to see Viv and have my underarm hair lasered off, then to Chinatown for lunch, then got dropped off at PHL airport to head home to LA (flight delayed a bit).
