I have a lot of recapping to do; but, for now, I just wanted to write a few things…
I had an awesome night out with friends at Hard Rock tonight, but I spent the last hour crying terribly. After saying good-bye to friends at Hard Rock, I dropped Penny off at her place. I got depressed. Lani & I were talking about saying “good-bye” to people. Then… it hit me. I dropped Lani off at her place and I just fell apart. She walked to the door, and I stayed parked to make sure she got in… then I burst out crying. She reopened the door and waved to me, it made me smile.. but, as I drove away, I started crying so much I couldn’t see. I can’t believe another 2 years may pass before I see her again. I can’t even talk to her as our time difference is so great. One of us is at work while the other is sleeping or out. We are never around at the same time. I had such an amazing time with her, as I always do when we’re together, and now she’s going home to Nottingham and I’ll be going home to LA.
I’m so excited to be heading home to LA to be with my John and our kitties. I miss them soooooooo much. I can’t stop thinking about them! Still, it’s so hard to say good-bye to someone who you won’t get to see or talk to again for so very very very long. It’s tearing me up. I still have puffy eyes and tears streaming down. I can’t believe we’ve come to this end once again… our holiday break together is over for 2007. I am a mess. I should just go to sleep.. it’s 5am already. I hope I can sleep. I have such a headache from crying that I think I’ll probably be able to pass out without much tossing around.
Lani, I hope you have a safe and great, smooth flight home! I miss you already and can’t wait to see you again!!! I hope, somehow, someway, to get together before December 09! Hugs!!!!!
Dec 30 2007