I woke up this morning feeling awful that I am no longer contributing to taxes for schools, roads, public works, etc. I thought about the fact that if more people get laid-off, who will pay taxes? Who will support our schools, roads and infrastructure?! It scares me a lot… knowing that less and less people are working, and that all of these people are no longer supporting the world we live in (locally and nationally).
I know I have to find a way to pay my bills and that should be my first priority. It is, honestly. I still worry about the fate of the world I live in and how it will affect me in the long-run by not contributing to it. I felt sick to my stomach when I woke up. I feel so helpless.
To make matters worse, I turned on the TV to see the House didn’t pass the bail-out. Well, I do understand that they are running for office and the people who will vote for them are calling them to say not to vote for it; but, we need to do something! Nobody likes this situation, but we can’t let the market fall apart. Lucky for me, I’m not retiring in a few years; but, there are many people who have lost their entire life’s savings in the market this week! Can they retire? No! Companies who rely on the market to keep their business alive and pay their employees are suffering too! They will be laying off more people this week just to stay afloat! This is bad, really really bad!
Then, to piss me off while I was down, I was subjected to advertisements for things that I normally would ignore. 1. vacation commercials – come to such and such, now 50% off hotels! Who the fuck has money to travel to the Caribbean for a family vacation?! 2. Swiffer Wet Jet – sanitary, yes. Wasteful, YES! Reuse your damn mop and save the environment! Hot water and map fluid will kill the germs! Swiffers are such an environmental hazard, geeze! 3. Sleeping Beauty on DVD for “a limited time only” really upsets me. What if I don’t have a job before this movie goes back into the Disney vault?! I really want this movie, but can’t justify the expense right now. It pisses me off that one of my childhood memories is being offered to me for a limited time, and I can’t buy it due to the economy and being jobless! Grrrrrrr!!!!!!
I’m exhausted and have no freakin’ clue what to do with myself. It’s after 5pm, no more jobs are being posted, and yet… I feel unaccomplished. It is painful in so many ways.