Tag Archive: depression

Jan 17 2010

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn

I am pretty damn tired right now… heading to bed in a few minutes. This week was crazy.. very sad and very happy all at once. Haiti’s 7.0 earthquake was truly devastating. I remember getting the cellphone notification when that earthquake hit. I looked at my phone and said, “7.0.. uh oh!” and went online …

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Jul 02 2009

The World I Know

I started taking Lexapro yesterday. I fought the idea of taking anti-depressants for so very long. I had seen way too many people lose their creativity, lose their passion, lose their motivation, and become somewhat numb. I didn’t want to be like them. So, I tried really hard to manage depression on my own by …

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Jun 17 2009

I Hate Mornings

I know a lot of people say this, but I really really mean it. I wake up every day before my alarm clock from awful dreams. Each one of them involves John. Some are great and I wake up sad that he’s not here. Others are terrible and I wake up in a panic, reminding …

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May 29 2009

Who Am I?

I’ve been trying to figure how why I have so much trouble seeing “signs” and communicating with loved ones. I’ve been trying to figure out why I don’t initiate sex, even though I want it. I’ve been trying to figure out why I get so stressed and overwhelmed so easily, especially when it comes to …

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May 15 2009

Mood Swings

So, be it my hormones or depression, my moods are swinging so wildly. I break down so easily, and I do stupid things… very stupid. Today, when I had a breakdown, I reached out to the one person who knows me best and who I trust to understand me – John. I shouldn’t have. He …

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May 15 2009

A Week & A Half

It’s now been a week and a half since John left me. He & I have had very important and good talks since then, but it doesn’t make it any easier. The truth is, I am not yet at the point of acceptance. I am still longing and missing him so much. I really wish …

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